wow…. 2dae was reli pack man….
firstly had 3 exams paper…
and…..
i forgot 2 bring my art stuff.. so..
after my fist paper, we rush to sit for our 3rd paper then..
i rush home and get it..
was peactically panting lyk a dog sak..
then at art room mr zaki said he wants 5 boards by 2moro..
kimmak!!!!!!!!
i was like, ‘wat the?’
but wat to do…
nxt week must pass up already..
no choice lor..
after that had stomp…
the moment we finish art we straight away board the bus
and headed 4 suntec.. where we will be performin…
the place is like wow!!!
so big ang grand..
overall our performance was great…
fun giler sak..
and can see tat the audience reli lyk it…
so…. we got a treat!!!
after the performance we headed to causeway..
we had pizza at pizza hut..
the organizer was great…
ordered 4 us like 2 pizzas, chicken wings and ice cream…
we were like so bloody full…..
today was truly a hectic day…
no one knows me better.
no one understand me.
no one appreciate me.
no one trust me.
no one can forgive me.
no one is always there for me.
no one loves me.
no one showers me with happiness.
no one……
no one except,
MY SISTER.
she means the world to me… lossing her was one of the hardest thing i had to go through.
i never imagined my life to turn out this way. its a mess. yet she can make it seem like its ok.
she never fails to make me laugh or smile. just seeing her smile takes a whole load of weight off
my shoulders. yet i noe behind her smile there are tears longing to be free…. seeing her happy
makes me happy. people keep bringing me down. makin stories about me over and over again.
they dont noe wat im goin thru. watever tat goes wrong all the fingers point towards me.
why must people always listen to the third party?? losing my sister is painful enuf and now i have to go thru
all this? stop it. pls. i want my sis back. i want her back home with me… i need her. she completes me more
than anything else. its hard to go thru life without havin someone to talk to… its reli hard… i have so much to sae
but she is not here for me to express myself… if i cud turn back time i wud. i wud lock tat fuckin door and this wud nvr have happened. i hate that door… arghhhhhh!!!
I WANT MY SIS BACK!!!
I MISS HAVIN HER AT HOME…
I MISS FIGHTING WITH HER….
I MISS THE FUN TYMS WE HAD….
I MISS HANGING OUT WITH HER….
I SERIOUSLY MISS HER!!!
well.. its here again.. ramadan is here again..
selamat berpuase seme umat umat islam..
im fasting this year… got to lose weight..
im tooooooooooooooooooooo fat……….
got tospend time with my sis today…
was reli fun..
has bin quite sum time since i spend time with her…
haiz.. finally after such a long time i got to spend time with her again..
miss her reli badly…
really badly….
im suppose to go clubbin on the 30th…
have already saved up enuf…
but its fastin month and my mom is seriously makin a big deal out of it..
apparently im not suppose to b in those places during this time of the month..
haiz.. still dono whether i can go or not….
haiz.. prelim 2 is here.. study again.. started with practical today.. so difficult.. but fun arh.. the bloody bio practical so irritating.. the substance just wont change colour.. so irritating.. confirm fail.. physics my curve is like not a curve anymore.. haha.. but overall very fun ah.. my laptop is finally arriving tomorrow.. cant wait sak… haha.. the best part is, its free.. got it when my mom subscribe for an internet plan.. cool ryte.. but its apple arh.. confirm very difficult to use.. but never mind.. as long as can use means can lah… haha..
i think im in love…
shitness man…
nevermind…
i dun wanna talk about it…
arghh….
haven had this feelin for such a long time…
haiz….
oh well…
watever it is…
i noe it can never happen between us..
so…
nevermind la…
haiz…
arghhhh…..
hah…
i noe..
i sound like freak…
nevermind la..
single lagi bez..
for now la…
but later.. i suffer.
let me lose weight first..
then i might have confidence to really fall in love..
cause,
who would want a fat boyfriend???
haha..
k la..
im goin crazy already..
ntah la din, ntah la don, ntah la dan..
i think i really am goin crazy..
haha.. k la.. bubbye..
wow.. im reli amazed.. i didn expect my recent post to have such an impact.. i was reli shocked to even receive comments.. well at least i noe that there are people out there who do cares wats going on in my life.. really appreciate it u guys.. reli man.. thanks a million..
its amazing how people react.. first they sae this.. then they sae that.. sumtimes i wonder, r we all the same?? like a great leader once said, we are victims of our own words… maybe its just life. everyone is out to get u. to bring u down n to hurt u. one thing for sure. remain strong. ignore the sceptical rumours and put aside all the remarks. cause they have yet to see themself in the mirrors. does bringing one down make one feel great?? i doubt so. a friend once said to me, let time heal the wound. but, it does not seem to be healing. all the remarks was a bullseye. well, nothing can be done. for me, i believe in let bygones be bygones. something i learnt from my ex hani. it helps. cause when you finally learn to forgive others, u r infact forgiving yourself. you wont be filled with rage, fury or wrath anymore. from what i see, it just takes one black sheep to make them all look bad. so, wat im trying to sae is.. negative remarks only put a negative appearance to urself. it may hurt sumone, but it hurts you just as bad. this is something i have learnt so far in life….
mengata dulang paku serpih,
mengata orang, awak yang lebih…
haha.. went down to np on tuesday to watch b.u train.. wow.. they r just as impressive as ever.. truly champions.. just watchin them train gif me the chills.. reli fun.. met up with jason there.. so skinny.. dono got eat or not.. c wen is as cute as ever.. alot more was there too.. eunice, crystal, dion.. alot more la.. the juniors was puttin up a routine or sumthin.. lily was there too.. super cute.. then met tae there.. he is plannin to work in spore.. but has not made up his mind yet.. i cant put up any photos yet.. its top secret..nvm.. atleast i have seen it with my own eyes.. unforgettable man…
on wednesday went down for the b.b.q.. so many people came.. started out with games.. catching, crocodile.. dono la.. c wen crazy ar.. run like siow.. redza was the crocodile i think.. very funny la they all.. then they started to cook so we just waited around and chit chat.. awhile later all the b.u ppl arrived.. like super star men.. everyone was like clapping and waiting for their chance to have alone time with them.. then lenny introduced toey(b.u coach) to us.. very friendly..small in size but can see that he is a man with determination.. then they put up a show.. super cool.. they did the last year routine.. then eveyone started going round takin pictures and stuff.. very very very fun… then later on around 12 plus.. b.u put up a “special show” the guys put up a drag show.. reli funny.. they dance like siow sak. very fun people man.. a reli rare opportunity to meet them live in person.. then the magnum guys did a show too.. some sort of erm.. strip show i guess.. but they wore thights la.. the b.u guys were like so happy.. its reli funny… then we went home at 2 am sak.. so fun tat we didn even c the time.. haha.. will be posting the pics soon.. k la.. got to go now.. bubbye…
wow.. have been reli busy.. had to prepare for teachers day.. had prelims.. wah.. reli worn out.. but i did have loads of fun. my class joined the dance category for teachers day talent time and guess wat?? we won!!! haha.. reli fun.. simple yet it amazed many.. then i joined the fashion show.. which i came in runner up.. haha.. didin expect to win anyway.. but still im grateful to be runner up.. compared to fareed im nothin sak.. haha.. then got dikir.. after all the trainings which was thougher then expected, we put up a great show.. dikir trainings was fun.. do the pitching which is something like tuning when we do in band.. then the “ragam” was all reli cool.. but the best part was the songs.. i like “matang” the most.. haha.. oh yeah.. i also lead the school for aces day together with fadhil n karym.. we did the cha cha slide.. so fun being on stage and watchin the whole school doing it.. now.. havin 1 week break but have to go back to do art.. almost done.. but i still have yet to start doing my sketches.. arghh.. too damn lazy to do ar.. then had STOMP performance a few days back.. reli fun.. S.K.Y and me had almost all the solo parts.. we got so many stuff.. bag, cap, a wrist band and the cool yellow t shirt… will be havin another performance soon at town.. hope i dont see anyone i noe.. malu seh.. haha.. k la.. got to go now.. im going to meet some special people.. its a once in a lifetime opportunity to meet them.. i cant wait.. k then… bubbye…
