messy
ok..
things haf been a mess lately..
not really la..
more like my mind has been messy lately..
so many things iin my mind.
i can go cukkoo anytym..
tapestry cumin..
skul startin..
nid to work more for my ***** prac’s..
nid to save money for downpayment for my *****…
nid money to buy skul stuff..
wat the hell…
u noe wats worst??
i miss d’zest..
no..
seriously..
i miss thm alot..
i miss watchin thm..
i miss trainin with thm..
i miss their jokes n laughters..
i simply miss them..
u noe..
now tat im single..
i feel so attached to them..
its like i care so much for thm..
thy fall i feel the pain..
they happy, i feel the joy..
its a wonderful feeling..
other then being with my bands(SLMB & CURSED SHADOWS…)
bein with thm is just full of joy..
these kids changed my life alot i can sae..
i learn alot frm thm too..
n im fallin in love with thm so much..
erghhh…
CONCLUSION…
all good things come to an end..
u noe..
d’zest isnt the only thing tat has died down…
a part of me is dying down too..
n it hurts..
i wana go so far yet…
it can never happen..
i guess i just have to study & werk je la..
since tats all i have left…
yea..
its sad la..
nvm…
at least they are happy..
ala…
ppl can get confused la readin my blog…
erghhh….
love… died…
cheer… died….
studies.. i might die..
music…. we’ll see if it dies..
im hurt la…
seriously la..
i just dono how to put it to words..
n i cant afford a psycology councillor…
thrs so much i wana sae but i cant…
no one i can talk to..
yes, thr are ppl out thr hu wants to listen to me..
nut i just dun go tellin my probs la…
i cant..
i just blog blog blog..
if not..
it will be circling in my head..
maybe i shud be more strate forward…
coz..
i keep alot off anger in me..
well of coz.. after awhile it will subside..
but still..
i nid to learn to sae wat i think is right…
coz i dun do it..
evn whn i wana sae sumthin..
im too particular of my friends gettin offended..
i care alot abt their feelin..
so..
i just jeep it to myself..
hais..
its killing me man…
fairul…
god daddy..
cursed fairul
fai jonson..
tody jonson…
tody…
signin off…
oh ya..
for the motha fuckers hu haf a problem with me bein me..
thn too bad..
ur life must suck so much tat u haf to try to bring me down..
well u noe wat..
im stronger thn u tink..
kill me if u must..
i will not die without a fyte..
i dono y i sae tat..
i just feel like sayin it..
kinda pissed off at suumthin/sumone..
see la…
i start again..
watever la..
bye,…
