Really worried bout dad now..

He has bin admitted for quite sum time already..

Im guessin we wont be celebratin raya at home this year..

I dun even feel like raya is cumin..

We r not at home planning wat to wear..

We are not at home breaking fast together.

We are not at home wakin up early together to sahur..

Its just different..

I miss dads jokes and laughter..

I wan him home where he cn watch tv with us and enjoy his
shows..

He is really lonely at the hospital..

I cant visit him….

No one can..

I miss him..

Cash is runnin low…

Not mine..

But family’s cash is runnin low..

I wurid..

My frends seem to be disappearing..

Eversince I broke the news to sum of thm they haf kinda been
reli silent..

This always happen you know..

When im happy n im finally ready to commit to a
relationship..

Sumthin bad will happen..

I dun undastan y cant they just b happy for me?

I’ve got enuf problems already..

N now they wana add on to it?

I dun wana mention names but gee reli disappointed me..

Of all people I tot she wud undastan and I tot she wud
care..

But afta wat happen the other day..

I reli dono wats goin on…

House is dirty n empty..

I feel reli shitty…

I just wana spend tym with ——- coz tats the only tym im
happy…

It sucks la..

I hate this feeling..

I noe im not alone…

I noe sumone out there cares..

Yet I feel alone..

I can go thru all this..

But no one sees the struggle.

I dun show it n I wont show it..

Papa, I noe u cant read tis…

But I wan u to know that im reli wurid..

Deep down inside im breaking apart..

Coz its so painful to see u in tis state..

I cant bear to c u suffer alone there..

I want him to get well..

I dun care if we dun celebrate raya..

I want him home..

I want everyone home so we can be a family again..

I miss you papa…

 

i miss my family.. my complete family all four of us..

I miss gee hu used to b thr all day all nyt..

I miss jojo hu can b such a nice fren..

I miss d’zest coz they make me smile.

I miss SLMB coz they r nice kids..

I miss all the gud tyms…

I gues im reli ageing huh?

 

I can take all this..

I must be strong..

Even if I have no one I will persevere.

 

Papa, get well soon.

:”(

gettin better..

maybe.. im over reacting..
maybe..
im just bein mushy..
maybe… im paranoid..
but i miss u lyk nuts..
i dono y..
we have bein seein each other everyday since we got together..
n whn i didn c u yesterday, it felt weird..
i guez i just nid to get use to it huh?
but reli,
whn i had u in my arms…
u know how comfortable it was?
in a nice way.. not in a horny way…
haiz..
im just missin u alot now..
n i dun like it whn ur cranky…
no fun..
i always get scolded..
haha..
but its okay…
yea.. i think i sound paranoid now..
but hu cares..
love failed for me for like a gazillion times..
n now, i wanna get a distinction… haha.. wth??
k fine..
in other words..
i’ll make it work..
coz u noe why?
im sick of bein unappreciated..
sick of bein the bad guy..
sick of bein alone..
sick of it all..
but im not sick of you…
baby you’re all i need now aite…

miss you…

life must go on…

finally…
i spoke to some about me..
well.
it aint easy..
but hey..
life must go on..
love my sis..
wana noe y?
coz she loves me 2.
haha

okok.

oh well..
so to the fuckers hu haf been tryin so hard to dig out secret n spreadin rumours.. 4get…

like my sis said..
as long as ur happy..
so.. yea..
i am..

to those hu noes…
i thank you with my whole heart for standin by me..
i swear..
im still me..
just tat u noe a lil more thn before..
thats all.

thanks again..
sis,
gee,
jojo,
dante,
sue,
zarina..
and to whoever else who knows and still care..
tats what a real friend is yea..

love u bi!

gimme a break!

ok..yay.. finally..
i can update,
haf bin reli busy wif skul..
so many assignments..
thank god i have awesome clazmates..
alicia, fuming, jellybean, brina, kansie, diana, j.d..
awesome kids..
super fun..
skul is hell la…
alot alot alot of werk..
home..
not so cool..
dad is reli ill..
reli reli weak..
im worried..
i dun show..
does not mean i dun care..
and some people are just givin me a hard tym…
thankfully…
i stumbled upon someone..
sumone i can talk to…
im glad i met u.. hehe.. :p
k. enuf..
i dun wana raise suspicion now..
haha…
again..
fairul is fallin in love..
seriously..
i hope this tym.. its right..
i still have lots of people to talk to..
especially jojo n gee.. i nid to mit thm n sit n talk…
poor gee is suffering bcoz of me..
i fil so uselez la..
i can undastan if she hates me la..
stil.. i shal talk to her..
ok la…
i will update soon..

my dearie sugar coated rainbow sprinkled hunny bunny woke up liao…
got to go now….