its not a want.. its a need.. :)

nothing more i could long for,

nothing more i could ask for.

nothing else can compare,

no one else can share.

a full moon so beautiful, always reminding me of you.

a full moon so round connecting me to you.

with stars gazing all thru the night,

with stars gazing my beautiul sight.

a symbol of love,

a symbol of life,

a symbol of eternity,

a symbol of trust.

you are my diamond,

you are my gem.

you are my pearl,

you are my everything.

engraved on it is you and me,

open my heart; only you have the key.

our circle of life, our circle of trust,

its purely love, never lust.

to hold you tight all through the night,

to see you close right by my side.

propose me with the gift of life,

i’l be with you till god takes my life.

its not a want its a need,

a symbol to show that we exist.

im willing to wait no matter how long it take,

whenever you’re ready, im here always.

my gorgeous moon, my shining star.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HEY HEY HEY..

ITS MY BBIRTHDAY..

1st, let me say, i never expected alot of stuff that actually happened..

so..

yaa..

GUESS WHAT PEOPLE….

I GOT MY RED VELVOT CAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOHOOOO!!!

thanks to the wonderful people and my someone special..

you made it happen.

thank you..

mom..

thank you for lying.. haha

and sis, thank you so much.. from gift 1 to gift 2 to the 3 meaningful cards that you got me..

and you, THANK YOU! for bein there with me.
pictures!!!

i would also like to thank…

everyone who wished me!!!

thank you so much..

be it advanced or belated it means alot to be remembered.

thank you..

the advance surprise at sentosa..

truly unexpected..

thanks ashley, renni, amelia, filz, kaykay, syam, cecillia, khai and nash..

the cake and the egg was really totful of u guys..

also melly song and friends who saw me while smoking.. haha..

that was reli unexpected..

all the people who texted, called, wrote on my wall at facebook, friendster, where ever! THANK YOU!!!

THANK YOU FOR MAKIN IT A REALLY MEMORABLE ONE THIS YEAR!

well.. its still my birthday.. so..

haha..

anymore updates i’l juz… update!

haha!!

p.s

i love you. enuf said!

NATIONAL SLAVERY

ok..

so…

the fact that i’l be goin ns in 10 days is so not helpin..

i dun wana stay home. i just wana go out..

the fact that my sister is never home does not help either..

the thing about her,

her friends are her priority.

maybe not but thats how it seems almost everyday now eversince she started meetin up this takraw ppl..

i dono..

i may not mean alot to her as much as her friends does.

but, maybe, if she could just spend sum tym wif me b4 i go wud be nice..

not forcing her..

not forcing anyone..

thats all..

haiz..

i dono la..

at least i do get my time with the one i love..

so i am contented…

im still pissed with mom about the cake…

sheesh….

-___-”

just get me the damn cake dammit… sheesh…………

-____-”

this is how the situation is ryte now..

a few days from now.. its..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOME!

a few days later..

bye good life.. hello hell(TEKONG)

life sucks la..

wtf.

im goin to miss out alot la..

anyways..

anyone who knows my mom.

tell her im pissed..

cause why?

she wont get me this for my birthday….

hmph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want it! i want it! i want it!

i love you! enuf said! =)

complications.

seems how easily you forget the times we had as friends.

how we stood by each other, how we always had each others back?

but now?

i dono…

maybe its me?

i dono..

reli..

im just losing you.

as simple as that.

something we worked so hard for and you say easily as tho it meant nothing to you… “can i quit?”

i ignored…

for i was hurt to hear that..

from my point of view.

he’s stoping you from wat ur good at.

he’s stoping you from being happy.

he’s stoping you from so much.

so much.

yet HE don realise the pain ur goin thru and stil ur standin by his side.

yes.

kudos to you for bein a good girlfriend.

im sorry.

he dont deserve you.

and because of what you have become,

i hate him.

im sorry.

i lost you..

and i have to say.

u lost me the day u turned ur back on me.

im sorry.

3 words

happy birthday dad…

i miss you…

i love you…

i need you…

dad’s first birthday with god.

hope god give’s him the best give he ever had.

his first birthday without us…

hope he’s doin ok..

i still remember his birthday last year..

i went to the hospital and got him a mango cake…

his favourite..

papa, im sorry if im never there for you.

im sorry if i couldn be there for you..

no matter what, i will always love you..

i reli miss you.

:’(

lava love… :)

boohoo….

im jealous now…

i want a ipodtouch too..

hehehe..

lava lamps = sexy

love it…

p.s

new years resolution….

ABS!!!

phucked up

some ppl just had to spoil my day.. seriously..

phucked up la..

god dammit..

fuckin self centred.. its 1 after another.

fuck!

up up up up up and update!!!

its about time i updtae this dusty and web filled blog of mine by now..

so ya..

hello blog world..

sorry for not updatin…

bin relly busy and my laptop is being a bitch…

anyways..

yes..

fancrew camp just passed and hell yea it was fun..

haha..

im too lazy to upload pics for now la..

might update soon tho..

anyways,

work has bin less of a bitch.. haha..

ok…

so..

ya..

i got alot in my hands…

i got to study for my coffee master, study for my car license, plan a routine for chingay, get christmas presents for my loved ones. wait.. which reminds me..

my christmas wish list..
hehehe..

so.. ya..

i wish i wish for christmas i can have…

-new shoes..(adidas or nike-high cut)

-a new bag? maybe..

-ipod touch!!!(since last year)

-new laptop!!!

haha…

oh well,

if santa is real…

i would ask him to give me nothin but good life..

aww..

sweet right?

ya right..

i would ask for a frikkin fairy tat would grant all my wishes la!

haha..

ok.. wake up. back to reality..

so ya…

err…

wat i really want for christmas?

ever ever after..

my fault?

okay..

i don even noe how to start…

well…

oh well…

you see… naturally no one like’s to be blamed… period..

but.. its ok… reli.. it is super ok.. if someone starts blaming you then you get all worked out… then you start blaming someone else,.. someone who has no fucking idea whats going on.. someone who knows nothing about whatever shit, someone who has fucking nothing to do with it..

reli people.. wow.. fun isn’t it blaming your crap on other people..

reli..

im sure it makes someone feel so appreciated, so treasured and so super cared.. wow!

has it never occured to you i have never once went agianst you? has it never occured to you that i try my best to be there for you when you needed someone to talk to? has it never ever occured to you that i actually cared? i guess not.. for all i know, i coudn care less.. i try my best to help you.. no reli.. i did try..

i did..

now you get blamed for something u didn do thn u get affected so badly and you blame me..

yes..

maybe you said you didn.. but your actions say otherwise..

here i am stil wonderin if your’e ok.. and wow.. your attitude was wow!

marvelous!!

terrific..

excellent!

the BEST WAY EVER TO SHOW SOMEONE HOW MUCH YOU APPRECIATE his help.. or watsoever..

THANKS MAN!

reli..

wow…

bukan nak ungkit la eh…

but.. ya..

you’re welcome btw….

sheesh………….. -___-”